30 years is a long time.
I’m not 30 yet, but I’m getting closer. ‘One dollar and some change’ close.
Turning thirty won’t bother me like it does to some.
I understand how some older folks age can feel like a barrier to your life’s dreams and wishes, especially when there’s so many young’ns whipping around in there eco-cars touching their fancy technology. It’s a lot of new to process. But (if they were able to understand how to) take one look around the internet and they’d see countless of people who are 50+ years old doing incredible things.
My fear is not having lived life to the fullest. I don’t want to wake up 30 years from now and realize I’ve been living by fear, inaction or default to a life someone else chose for me.
I think what prompted all of this is gabriella and I have been watching the German show DARK on Netflix’s. I won’t say much about it but it deals with time and the repercussions of decisions. (I’m a sucker for time travel.) you get to see certain character’s lives juxtaposed at younger and older moments of their lives.
Both gabs and I are separately dealing with multiple crossroads recently in our careers, ideas and life in general and so I also thinking a lot about the future and also a lot about my past.
I’d say the last eight years or so have been extremely formative and honestly quite difficult. I spent the first two years at college dissatisfied and bored with unenthusiastic education and then injured my neck badly, so I didn’t really get the college experience most look fondly back on.
Of course, like most things in life, I learned more through my obstacles, pain and failures then I have through successes.
Our failures define us more than our successes.
And whether or not that failure leads you to something positive and good in your life depends on what you do after you fail.
I’m excited with what I’m doing and fighting for each day.
Call this an introspective, or delirium from staying up to late on the 4th of July, I’m grateful for what Ive been through, and the work I must do to live a meaningful life, surrounded by people I love.
I am excited to fight for my dreams and make them real. I’m excited to wake up today and the next day and fight.
STAY BOLD, Keep Pursuing,
— Josh Waggoner
Daily Blog #618
